One Word Only

You are: Lazy
You like: Chocolates
What do you like the most about earth: Nature
Name one friend you would eat for 1,000,000$: Pein
Would you kill a dog for 1 million dollars: Pugs

Yes or no:
Live with your parents? yes
own YOUR car: no
Have more than 100$ in your wallet? no
Seen someone get killed\or die infront of you: no
Been raped? NO
have siblings? yes

Put an x to everything tht is true:
Have you ever…
[] Fantisised about your teacher?
[x] Wanted to kill someone?
[x] Stuck your gum under a table
[x] told a friend that you were doing something else with your family, even though you had already promised them to do something with them?
[x] said i love you, and actually felt it
[x] called someone a slut
[x] been called a slut
[] faked to be handicap juss to be in those handicap parkings?

you are naturally;
[] Blonde
[] Brunette
[] red head
[x] Other-black head? haha black-haired

Answer these questions:
What should you be doing right now? SLEEPING
Where would you want to be right now? OMAN
What’s your goal in life? MONEY $$$
would you like to be a taxi driver? NO
Have you ever spent a whole day on the search of the perfect bumper sticker for your friend? NO
Worst memory of school? SORRY CEREMONY
Who’s your worst enemy? MYSELF
Whats your worst fear? DISEASES
ever laughed so hard that you peed? YES
Have you ever ate and then puked it out on purpose? YES
ever been so drunk that you felt numb? YES!
Ever cut yourself? YES
Had gossip written about you on the bathroom wall? NOPE
Do you like yourself? NOOAAHYEAHHH
Are you conceited? I THINK
Do you like men, or women? M.E.N.
Has anybody ever thought you were a homo? MAYBE
Are you a homo? NO
are you single? YES
if not, Are you married? NO
Are you secretly in love? NO
Do you have a diary? YES
Have you ever stayed in the shower for more than 1 hour? YES
Do you sing in the shower? YES
Two Facebook Accounts? YES
Do you own a laptop? YES
do you own a camera? YES
been to YES
How’s the weather? BREEZY
What season are we? ALWAYSSUMMER
What would you like to be later on in life? RICH
Had pornstar ever came to your mind? O.o
What sign are you? ARIES
Are you gay-phobic? NO
What’s your pet peeve? (something you cant stand?) FLIRTS
If you have to pee and there’s only a sani-vac will you hold it in until home? YES
Do you wear braces? NO
Do you wear glasses? NO
Favourite song? BILLIONAIRE
Song stuck in your head? (not the same song) THE WRITER
Last book you read? SASSY GIRL
Favourite disney princess: MULAN

Spell your name with your favourite movies:





favourite tv show? Ellen
name me your two bestfriends? Mary,Teng
Have you every used any sex toy? No
are you a virgin? Yes
Are you religious? Yes
How old are you? 20
are you a man? No
if so, have you hit puberty yet? Yes
Do you moan in the shower like in those Herbal Essence commercials? Sometimes
Ever fallen asleep in the shower? No
Ever took a piss in the shower? Yes

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Girl Confessions

1. What is your name?

2. Do you enjoy drama?
-No it totally sucks
3. Are you a girly girl?:
4. Who was the last person you hugged?
-My mom
5. Small or large purses?
6. Are you short?
7. Do you like somebody?
-A little yes.
8. What would you do if someone smacked your butt?
-I'd pluck that someone's eyeballs
9. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
-Yes I really really do
10. Do you dress up on Halloween?
-If you're talking about with prize money then definitely
11. Are you double jointed?
-Am I what?
12. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
-The bathroom
13. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?
15. Do you call anybody by their last name?
-A lot of anybodies
16. How many guys will read this just because it says “Girl Confessions”?
-Anyone curious about me
“X” Marks the Spot:

[x] I do wear make up
[ ] I have cried at a movie theater.
[x] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth.
[x] I get jealous.
[ ] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.
[x] I love to laugh.

[ ] I like death/grind/black metal.
[ ] I like rap.
[ ] I like country
[x] I carry a purse.
[x] I’d be lost without my computer.
[ ] I own a Spice Girls CD.
[ ] I own a Britney Spears CD.
[ ] I own a boy band CD.
[x] I get bored watching football.
[ ] I’ve never been called a spoiled brat.
[x] Guys are confusing.
[ ] I’ve been called a bad influence.
[ ] I have/had a piercing other than my ears.

17. What color is your bra that your wearing?

-Right now? braless

18. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?:

-Dark. I think it's sexy

19. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?

-2 weeks ago but not now

20. Do you have a best friend(s)?

-Yes, countable

21. Have you ever had your heart broken?


22. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?


23. Do you like your life?

-Not for now

24. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?

-I don't think I had a decent bf that anyone would care

25. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?

-Yes...well pushed actually

26. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?


27. How long have you had Facebook?

-3 yrs haha

28. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?


29. What are your biggest fears?


30. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?

Yes, tantrums if you ask me

31. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?


32. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a


33. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?


34. Do you ever wish you were famous?


35. Are you currently missing someone?


This guy or that guy?

-Which guy?
Punk/Goth or Gangster?:


Preppy or Cowboy?


Face or Body?


Sweet or Sexy?


Well-educated or Dropout?

-Duh, educated

Armani or Abercrombie?

The F is this?

City-slicker or Rural Guy?


Blue, Green, Grey, or Brown eyes?

Green >:)

Contacts or Glasses?


More Questions.
36. Eyeliner or Mascara?


37. Louis Vuitton or Dooney & Bourke?


38. Pumps or flats?


39. Skirts or pants?


40. Socks or leggings?


41. Hoodies or jackets?


42. Heels or sneakers?


43. Straight or curly hair?


44. Hoop or dangling earrings?


45. White or black?


46. Victoria’s Secret or Bath and Body Works?


47. Smoothies or lattes?


48. Diet or regular sodas?


49. Water or daiquiris?


50. Pearls or diamonds?


51. Vintage or boho?


52. Mary-Kate or Ashley Olsen?

Ashley Olsen

53. Lindsay or Hilary?


54. Ipod or cell phone?


55. Friends or family?


56. Lip gloss or lip stick?


57. Manicure or pedicure?


58. Tiffany’s or Chanel?


59. Love or peace?


60. Sunglasses or purses?


In a girl or guy…
Funny or Serious?: FUnny

Romantic or Daredevil?: Daredevil

Cute or Hot?:Hot

Dark Eyes or Light Eyes?: Dark Eyes

Long Hair or Short Hair?:Short

Curly Hair or Straight Hair?:Straight

Clean-cut or Rough?:Rough

Good Dancer or Good Singer?:Good Dancer

Basketball Player or Football Player?:BBall

Jock or Rebel?:Rebel

Smoker or Non-smoker?:Non-smoker

Druggie or Clean?:CLean

Has a Motorcycle or Has a Sports Car?:Sport car!

Beard/Mustache or Clean-shaven?:Clean-shaven

Younger or Older?:Older

Player or Loyal?Loyal

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30 People Picked From My Mind

The Peepz:

1. Teng

The Questions:


• How did you meet 10?

Through the Audition

• What would you do if you had never met 6?

Well nothing I guess. I wouldn't know he exists

• What would you do if 20 and 15 dated?

Haha happy. They're both tall and smart. They'd be cute together.

• If you could marry between 6 and 14 who will it be?

I will go for 6 since the other's a girl

• Did you ever like 9?

Not really but I like him as a friend

• Have you ever seen 4 cry?

I think so, we were so young back then

• Would 4 and 17 make a good couple?

Ahaha yes 17 would be head over heels for 4

• Would number 1 and 2 make a good couple?

No I don't think so, they're both girls, but then again I'm not so sure about 1 hahaha!

• Describe 8:

The best baklush ever!

• Do you like 12?

Yes, he's my birthmate :)

• Tell me something about 17:

He's my buddy brother :D

• What’s 7’s favorite color?


• What would you do if 1 just confessed they liked you?

Well I already know that. We're twins

• When was the last time you talked to number 15?:

Well that would be last month

• How do you think 19 feels about you?

I bet she feels sad for me, not passing the exam that is

• What language does 13 speak?

Hahaha medical

• Who is 2 going out with?

I don't know him. I've never met him

• What grade is 16 in?

SHe has finished studying already

• What is 5’s favorite music?:

Well generally love songs that's for sure

• Would you ever date 13?:

Of course :) Then we'd be insulting each other. Our way of bonding full of laughter haha

• Is 11 single?:

I believe so cuz if he's not he won't be able to fling with the ladies

• What is 10’s last name?

I don't actually know but it starts with 'M'

• Where does 18 live?:


• What do you think about 20?:

He's nice

• What is the best thing about 30?

He's a talented person with a passion for music

• What would you like to tell 14 right now?:

I like it when she sends me quotes

• How did you meet 9?

We were colleagues

• What is the best and worst thing about 2?

She's sweet and funny but she doesn't keep in touch anymore

• Are you going to know 3 forever?

Definitely. My lovable sister :)

• How long have you known 26?

Ever since 3rd year so almost 3 years now

• Who is 24?

My cousin

• Are you or did you ever date 2?

Nope, always in a group date, so wait...I think yes then

• Do you have a crush on 27?

Ahahaha nada

• Would you kiss 25?

Ewww! he's my freaking brother!!!

• Have you hugged/kissed 22?

...Freaking No way man

• Would you like to hug/kiss 21?

Shit even more! o.O

• Is 29 your gff?

Ahaha not really close

• What do you hate about 23?

Nothing. He's a gentleman

• What’s your relationship with 28?

We're friends and my first friend in college

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50 Ugly Truths About Me

1. When I say "Okay lang" it really doesn't mean it's okay, just so you can be satisfied and keep quiet

2. I really don't like it when they say I'm fat. I'm really trying hard you know!

3. I'm not really NBSB

4. I'm not really a good person. My thoughts can prove it

5. I liked our neighbors and since my parents weren't home I was left with my brother and I told my neighbors we didn't know where our parents were so we wanted to go with them. My parents thought it was funny when I just met them the day before that.

6. Karma scares me, like really really scares me.

7. Girls can turn me on too

8. WHen I was a kid I thought everything that I watched on TV were real-life experiences.

9. If I don't know something they talk about I don't ask, I just act like I know it too and laugh along with them. Prideful

10. I daydream a lot, like 24/7 even when I'm asleep.

11. I love danger.

12. I smile because I always think about things but then I know it's creepy. I mean you see someone who's alone staring at space and smiling, wouldn't that freak you out?

13. WHen I was little I slept overnight at a friend's house and I wet myself and since his sister's small I had to wear his brief.

14. I hate it when we go to the store and a friend asks me magkano to? I don't even work there!

15. I ate ice cream that fell on the ground.

16. I stole stickers from a shop

17. I swear when I tell a story or when there's something wrong, but only when people around me swear too and except if ever a crush is present.

18. I have hirsutism.....ahahaha!

19. I'm allergic to hot, good-looking men. When they get a meter close I have to walk away

20. I tend to like people easily

21. I'm a crybaby. When my mother says I'm stupid I cry secretly but in public, I'm numb

22. I don't really like nursing. I was just too lazy to find an appropriate course for me.

23. I drowned a wounded bird in a pail of water and told my mom I was giving it a bath

24. People say I'm not fat-fat but when I look at the photos, it says the opposite. I wonder who's telling the truth.

25. I thought of becoming a dermatologist but then I think it's better to just think about it.

26. I don't like my butt. It's too....big

27. I love Indian accents haha. Especially when I dial the wrong number. "Did you kick my dog?"

28. I liked Korean looking guys before. But after teaching at a Korean center, I started liking the American type

29. When I was little I woke up in the middle of the night, went to the kitchen, took a frying pan, went back to bed and slept with it beside me

30. I want to have a baby but I don't like having my perineum cut

31. The first thing I look at in a guy is his butt ~_^

32. The second thing...his shoes.

33. I hate it when I want to buy clothes, my mom always have to be against my taste. I hate it more when she's the one paying

34. Many say that if I were a guy I'd be totally hot. Meaning that I'm a girl I guess I'm not so hot

35. I don't like talking to patients. I rather just be asked to do things than interview them

36. I'm so obvious when I'm in love.

37. I like it when people praise me. I gets stuck in my head for days

38. I'm really really sweet. I spoil people who are very special

39. I'm a sleepy person. I wake up but then after 30 mins I'm sleepy again

40. I don't like people who speak English...and try hard

41. I hated one situation when I said that 10 rows of chairs are for the students and I counted it thrice and explained it to a parent but then he said "Bilangin mo nga ulit" in a way that he was expecting me to be wrong and I counted and I said "10 lang po tlga"

42. I like to kill when I just met someone and at the end of the day he sends me msgs with muah at the end

43. I can't wait to give my love to someone

44. When I buy a book I read the back cover then the ending.

45.I always leave things to be done for tomorrow

46. Jason Statham! Damn I am loving every bit of his body

47.When I like someone I let him know by letting others do the job of embarrassing me intentionally

48. I'm really really really madamot when it comes to food

49. I practice making my voice sound like Pink. I love the hoarse tune

50. Kaliwali. I always say that when I feel I'm going to mess up. And I end up messing up all day

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Okay so I was really into my studying. I almost forgot about everyone and my Facebook. I was so into my world but at times he popped in my head, well occassionally...okay I think all of the time except when I'm into Saunders. Then my heart skipped a beat but I tried to get back to my reading but couldn't contain myself so I decided to text my friend while studying. I told her that I really was in love with him and I asked how she was doing. Of course I was thinking of him that when I sent the message I unknowingly clicked his number! I didn't realize what I had done until I received a message from him telling me that it was a wrong send and of course he was curious he kept bugging me how this guy is that I am so in love with. I wasn't ready! I had no plans of telling him! But my friend told me to tell him since I've already leaked the hint myself. So I did what she told me. He replied like he didn't know but I knew he was pretending to be surprised. I was really obvious anyway and it made me really sucky -_-. He told me not to be shy and it's not like I'm 'others'. I really didn't want to text much because I was still having skipping heartbeat so I had to say goodnight and I definitely got panda eyes O.O

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Just A Name

He started calling me something. It was the best pet name he's given me. It started when my friend and I went to his dorm. My friend kept teasing us so we decided to play along, teaming up against but then the teasing ends up with me being squished by the two of them. We acted like we had a secret relationship though it really didn't mean anything. Then I was surprised because I thought we would only call each other 'that' when it was just the 3 of us. I was walking down the hallway and he calls me 'that'. I was surprised and I could feel my cheeks burning. I was not ready for that. Not really expected it.

But I didn't call him the same thing. I felt awkward and weird. Like mushy all around. I used other names. We have a lot of names for each other. But he sticked to 'that'. I never really got over it and I even the loved the way he uses 'that' to call me.

The results weren't out yet so I still got to have loads of fun. We had a batch party and he was the organizer at this 'Manor'. I was unsure because it was raining hard and I had no idea how to get there. Good thing the rain stopped and my brother was so good he offered to drop me there :) So we partied all night. Of course I got to dance with him, arm around my waist and...shit, I hate being lovey dovey. Well we were just having fun. He had to entertain his guests so we didn't really get to spend time together. Definitely the night's gotta end. It was 4AM and I was still dancing when this guy got a hold of me and turned me around making me face him. Said his name was Kevin. Looking good like Italiano. He wanted me to join him at their table but I said I prefer the dance floor. He asked for my number and I turned him down. Tsk, he really looked good and I loved his accent. I didn't want him to see that but he did see that I guy was talking to me. He calls me 'that' in front of others but with his brothers he calls me 'this'. BUMMER. He even made me entertain his brother. Cool and I had fun with him haha cute even. Then we were about to get home and he asked me if I enjoyed the night and I really did have fun. He said he'd pay me back some other time because he really didn't get to entertain me. But still, I enjoyed more than enough. :D

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Forgetting Is A Must

It's been 7 months since I've written about anything that has happened to me. I've been skipping chapters and I don't want to forget them no matter how stupid they played. Today is Oct 25, 2010 and I'm taking a break from my review. Actually I've been having a lot of breaks but hopefully I get to finish the whole book. You see, I failed the Nursing Licensure Exam so I have to retake on Dec 19,20. I have so little time left and don't really feel confident. I want to do better this time. I'm a dreamer and an ambitious one at that. I wonder how it feels like to be in Top 10?

Anyways, I know I've been liking a lot of guys and sometimes I even wonder why cause when I take a second look at them I don't see any reason why. I know "how mean Angel". But no matter who it is that I like, I would always go back to one person. Every time I walk by he never fails to greet me, calling me a lot of names though not insulting. I kind of liked it. He calls me names that describe me and it somehow makes me feel special though I know it's just a joke. He never forgets to say hi or tease me. Some of my friends thinks he's like a Greek God and they are so surprised I know him. It's not like he's a celebrity. Whatever. We stopped texting ever since 2nd half of 2nd year college. Why? Because I hated the fact that we weren't classmates anymore. Because he's F and I'm H. Because I rarely get to see him and makes it hard for me to reach him. I wanted to forget about him because I knew I never had the chance. But I never realized how close we were before. So I stopped texting. I didn't see it coming, the day that I would regret ever doing that I tried to hate him. But at that time, I just really wanted to forget him. I was granted that wish but I have betrayed my heart. Nothing mattered to me and I grew up selfish. But with him, everything mattered, well, hyperbolically speaking. The way I look, the way I laugh, my clothes, my hair and my voice. Oh my God, I'm like Massie from 'The Clique' movie, only I'm not such a bitch, stepping on everyone. I can't believe I've been pretending in front of him. I guess I just didn't want him to be annoyed or disgusted by me. But then again I was not just being selfish but I was also being dishonest.

No wonder I failed the board exam. I was busy, too busy trying to bring back the way we were in the past. Wow, I really need to grow up. We used to text all the time, sending messages and chatting online until dawn. I focused on him when there's nothing really to gain from it. So here I am stuck while the others are steps ahead of me. But I was ready for the results, only I didn't know it was so hard to change old habits.

He was curious, or worried? I think if I passed the exam. I turned my phone off for a day and the next day I told him I was unlucky. He was sad, somehow. I could see from the way he texted but he encouraged me. I was happy and it meant a lot. After that, I became serious...well, somehow. I kept my phone off and started facing unread books. I told others I had left for Oman. I didn't want them to know of my plans. It would just add to the pressure. I wondered if that's what he knew too.

My bestfriend told me that I have to be true because I'll be losing the chance of telling him how I feel. I was sad, almost letting a tear fall. I had no choice I asked him if he really was leaving. He said he's not sure but even so he'd still be back. Still I was sad. So he asked how I was. I told him the truth. He's special just like my bestfriend and I love to keep that connection.

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No Cure For Music Addiction

I love music. My father's a musician, my mom can play the guitar and my brother has a great voice like the ones from Boyce Avenue. When I was young I would always go to my dad's gigs along with my mom and brother. I didn't really understand music at that time and I just danced playfully. But then again I was kind of boyish and preferred to play with the guys.

I was grade 1 I think when I first joined the singing contest. I wasn't nervous, I was excited. I forgot what song I sang but I remember it was a Filipino song that was cute and funny that my mom taught me the moves while my dad taught me how to sing it. I won 2nd place. The 1st placer was a tough one to beat and she's been ahead of me for a long time. They call her the Black Stallion. She wasn't only good in singing but in other competitions such as story telling and declamation as well. I stuck to my singing. I only won 1st place once and I forgot what I sang. The Black Stallion had to migrate to US which leaves me a wide opportunity for fame. I lost my passion for singing since I always end up destroying one note as I sing on stage so I tried other contests where I reigned :) But still I wanted to sing. I auditioned once when I was 2nd year but I chickened out because I kept thinking what if I get one note wrong again. That would be embarrassing and teenagers don't take embarrassment well. But I tried one last time when I was in 4th year, didn't go that well but then I was sure I loved singing and I could never part with my videoke.

So what is it that I like about Music. I don't really love the music itself. I love the different voices of the singers. Especially strong steel-like voices. I could never stop myself from listening. Pink is my all-time favorite. I love her gruffy voice when she hits the high notes. It's pure rock and kick ass! It makes my blood hot and running and I always end up slamming in my room. Kelly Clarkson. She's the reason I stashed Pink but only for a while. She has this strong voice that can never be broken and extremely high that I'd have to cut my throat to reach it. The best one was 'Behind These Hazel Eyes'. I sang that during the Battle of the Bands. Damn, it gave us the trophy of the champions! In your face official school band who think they're the only ones with the band talent! That was the best day especially when I saw them sulking their heads. Priceless! Anyway I also love Taylor Swift, her sweet, sultry ( I think) voice relaxes my heart and mind. I love her lyrics and how her song is interpreted. It really speaks to you, meaning her songs can really reach to you. Then there's Katy Perry. I didn't like her at first but when I heard her Thinking Of You wow, I can't stop listening to it because I can really relate to it. Then I heard the 'Firework' song and that's when I really started loving her. Of course there's also Rihana and Kesha and a lot more.

I was riding in my cousin's car and we were on our way to the mall. I saw this guy with headphones and a t-shirt that says 'There is no cure for music addiction'. I tried thinking and what the heck. Who would want to cure music addiction? If love is the spark of life, music is the treatment to life wrecked by love.

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Ovum + Sperm = ME

I wake up at indefinite times but usually mornings and usually I have eggs and fried rice

waiting for me but ever since I returned to my home country I end up cooking them myself. I start
my day eating and staring into space then when somebody turns on the TV I stare at it instead of
space. Usually I hate eating before going to school, it makes me really sleepy. Sleepy like I just woke
up and I want to close my eyes again. I'm a sleepy person, I can fall asleep absolutely anywhere
as long as there isn't dead feet I'm smelling.

My mom's Rhea the Titan and my dad is Kronos. Yeah I saved a lot of kids from being their
parents. My dad loves spoiling me and my mom sure does love nagging me. But I love them both!
I used to spend my vacation going to the deserts and loving every bit of technology they have there.
Of course I rode the camel once and I say, better than horses. I love the desert. It's quiet and
peaceful and of course I'm sure it is because that's where most of the 'terror' are. It's where they
live so as long as you stitch your mouth shut and smile innocently, you're a veggie in feast, left
unnoticed. I also have a brother who is like Paul Blart from Mall Cop but not so really.

It's already 12:02 AM and I'm supposed to be sleeping right now because I have to wake up
early tomorrow to turn off my alarm and go back to sleep and wake up again to cook breakfast,
watch a little of NCIS and hesitantly go to my room and meet up with Saunders. Believe me it's
lovely the thought of being a nurse, saving lives and everything but the process of being one! It
pisses me off. I lack the passion and have no inspiration and it's keeping me from getting my
license! I just failed July and I'm taking again this December and I swear if I don't get it again for
Christmas...well there's still another July. I'm hoping and PRAYING it doesn't come to that....
seriously. SO yeah, I'm stuck right now with Saunders and I'm planting every bit of information
in my head. I'm done with pregnant mothers and crying babies and now I'm left with a pissed off
body because it's not functioning well especially cancer which took me almost a week to finish.
You may be wondering why I'm in front of the computer when I could have spent this time
tiring myself out from reviewing rather than typing here. Yeah I thought about that too but, well
I really am stubborn am I not?

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Sometimes I don't understand myself. It's not that I'm not consistent or that I just get tired of things so easily especially when matters don't go my way. But I can't seem to dig in the explanation of why I just can't get tired of you.

The past 2 years I get to live by so peacefully. I mean the thought of you never even crossed my mind. I don't know how I even got over you before we became 2nd year college students. I don't even know why we stopped sending each other text messages. I mean, that didn't even matter at all. The way you vanished wasn't a big deal to me and I didn't even care. Then I would pass through the hallways and see you and just like a daily routine, you'd be the first to greet me. You never call me by my name. I don't remember you calling me by my name. You always had a name for me and I was happy because I felt like we had a special connection; because you were the only one who would call me by those names. It never stops, every time I walk pass you, you never fail to notice me and that made me happy though at that time I didn't really notice it.

But I had to be excited. I've been waiting for a long time to see you take the stage. I was not an outgoing person. You would ask me to go out with you for a casual day and I would always find an excuse. I don't know if I was just too shy or just stupid to make a move. I realized after a long time that I've been given a lot of opportunities and I just pushed them away, I pushed you away. Now I know it's all my fault.

So I took my video cam and searched for a good spot. I didn't even care if there were people behind me. I was determined to get a good record of your performance. I was so excited. Then I heard the music and I could feel my heart beat so hard as I wait for you to come out. Then there you were, wearing an innocent-colored jacket dancing so humbly. I stopped breathing. My mouth was slightly open. I was totally blown away. I felt......squiggly? LOL
Then it was my turn to take the stage. I was somehow nervous but I had control. I've been performing on stage for a long time, but this one was different. It was like I needed to perform better, because I knew (at feeling ko lang naman) that you were also waiting, that you'd watch me. So I did my best. For the first time, I danced without having to think of what step I should do next. I had the expressions, the emotions. It was like I was auditioning for something when all I really wanted was for you to notice me. Then as the program came to an end. I had forgotten about you.

But it didn't last long. After transferring the video files I watched my section perform. Then beside the file was your section's video. I didn't watch it, I was scared. I don't know, it's like I felt something heavy that made me turn off my laptop and go to sleep. I just shove the thought of you off my mind.

Then days passed and there are times that I would think about you but then it was just about the way how you danced that night. But I never thought that things would change so fast; I mean my feelings would change so fast.

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